It's been a baaad week. I didn't stay on plan for long. First, it was Admin Professionals Day on Wednesday, and although my co-workers dropped the pretense that it would be a surprise (hello, it's right there on the calendar!) and just straight out asked me what kind of cake I wanted, they did not honor my request for a fruit plate instead. Although I did good on Wednesday, my willpower collapsed on Thursday and it's been downhill from there. I guess that's what I get from starting a life-style change on a whim. I'm going to stick to it though, and plan better for next week. Having healthy food on hand makes all the difference.
I broke one of my cardinal rules of weight-loss today, and bought clothes one size smaller than what I currently fit into. It's such a waste of money--buying something with the intention of using it later, which turns into never. But. I need new clothes badly. Work clothes, casual clothes, you name it, I ain't got it. I've been on a tight budget for the last few years, and buying more fat clothes hasn't been a priority. And I can't stomach buying more size 24s. In the fall, my 24s were so loose they were nearly falling off, and although I've put some of that weight back on and they fit again, I know that if I stick to WW this time around, I'll be into 22s in no time. No time at all. And now I have another goal/deadline of sorts. These pants have a 90 day expiration date, so if I can't wear them by the middle of July, back they go.
Damn, that means my birthday is only about 90 days away. I can't believe I'm almost 26. That's fucking depressing.
I hated asking for the fruit instead of cake at work this week, because I had to tell everyone why I was abstaining and it's just not a conversation that I want to have ongoing. It is a form of accountability, I guess, so if I don't lose I'll be recognized as a loser, but also, I'm not comfortable with my weight as a topic of conversation. It's great to get complements, but I don't want to feel like people are focused on that.
4.29.2006
4.25.2006
Back in the saddle again...
So, I went to my first WW meeting again last night since November. According to my Weight Tracker on weightwatchers.com, I was at 252.something when I quit for the holidays. Last night, I weighed in at 260.4. Not great, but not surprising given my constant menu of Ben and Jerry's and pizza for the last few months. I'm talking every night. But, I'm still almost 30 pounds down from my true starting weight, 288 in Jan 2005, so that's still progress, right?
I signed up for the summer pass, so I'm pre-paid through August. I hope that acts as a good enough motivator to keep me sticking to the program. Last fall, knowing that I've paid my money for the whole week was a good motivator, so we'll see if I can make that last throughout the summer.
Since I have pre-paid, and am not being held to when I turn over my money every week, I plan on shopping around meetings a bit to find one I like. Last night, I went to the Monday night meeting at the south WW store-front, and the leader was a guy (!) named Randall. As novel as it would be to have a male WW leader, I don't think I'll be going back to that meeting. The dude was a nutjob. He had no interest in greeting or accomodating new members, he couldn't explain the program well, and he had no control over the meeting. People were talking amongst themselves while he was giving out kudos, and people kept just shouting out (like requests for recipes) during his talk. Not in an "everyone is engaged and participating" kind of way, but more of a "no one is paying attention, and would rather share tips than listen to this dude" vibe. I got a tip that Mollie, who was the awesome leader that I had in the fall, still has a meeting on Tuesday nights at 6:00, at the north store front. That's quite a trek from where I live, but it could be worth it to have a good meeting to go to. It shouldn't be too bad for me to get up there straight after work. 6:00 is much better than 7:00 in that respect.
I am breaking with my previous m.o. and am setting a weight-loss goal for this time around the merry-go-round. I want to be at 238 by August 26 (which is when my pass runs out). That's 22 lbs in 17 weeks, which is totally do-able. It's also 50 lbs less than when I started, which would be amazing.
288 : 260.4 : 238
So, I went to my first WW meeting again last night since November. According to my Weight Tracker on weightwatchers.com, I was at 252.something when I quit for the holidays. Last night, I weighed in at 260.4. Not great, but not surprising given my constant menu of Ben and Jerry's and pizza for the last few months. I'm talking every night. But, I'm still almost 30 pounds down from my true starting weight, 288 in Jan 2005, so that's still progress, right?
I signed up for the summer pass, so I'm pre-paid through August. I hope that acts as a good enough motivator to keep me sticking to the program. Last fall, knowing that I've paid my money for the whole week was a good motivator, so we'll see if I can make that last throughout the summer.
Since I have pre-paid, and am not being held to when I turn over my money every week, I plan on shopping around meetings a bit to find one I like. Last night, I went to the Monday night meeting at the south WW store-front, and the leader was a guy (!) named Randall. As novel as it would be to have a male WW leader, I don't think I'll be going back to that meeting. The dude was a nutjob. He had no interest in greeting or accomodating new members, he couldn't explain the program well, and he had no control over the meeting. People were talking amongst themselves while he was giving out kudos, and people kept just shouting out (like requests for recipes) during his talk. Not in an "everyone is engaged and participating" kind of way, but more of a "no one is paying attention, and would rather share tips than listen to this dude" vibe. I got a tip that Mollie, who was the awesome leader that I had in the fall, still has a meeting on Tuesday nights at 6:00, at the north store front. That's quite a trek from where I live, but it could be worth it to have a good meeting to go to. It shouldn't be too bad for me to get up there straight after work. 6:00 is much better than 7:00 in that respect.
I am breaking with my previous m.o. and am setting a weight-loss goal for this time around the merry-go-round. I want to be at 238 by August 26 (which is when my pass runs out). That's 22 lbs in 17 weeks, which is totally do-able. It's also 50 lbs less than when I started, which would be amazing.
288 : 260.4 : 238
10.05.2005
10.04.2005
So, I'm doing the Core this week, which is Weight Watcher's version of the South Beach Diet. The idea is to eat only from the "Core foods" list, which includeds lean meats, all un-processed veggies and fruits, and fat-free dairy product, et al. You are also allowed 35 points of non-Core foods for the week. I started yesterday and almost gave up after breakfast, when I had eaten all of the Core foods I had brought to work (scrambled eggs and an apple) and I was still hungry. I stuck to it though, and I think I'll be able to suffer out the week.
My thought process for trying the Core was this:
I was looking through a notebook I keep of recipes torn out from magazines, marking recipes that would be low in points. I noticed that most of the recipes that I had marked would also be Core--that is, they contained only lean meats and veggies and spices or herbs. I thought that it might not be too hard to stick to eating from those recipes, plus fruit to snack on, for a week.
I noticed that while I was doing Flex, I almost never ate bread. I tend not to keep bread on hand anyway, because it always spoils before I can eat it all, and it is too many points for it to make it onto my Flex menu. One of the drawbacks of the Core is that you can eat bread, but you have to count the points, and since I had already cut most of the breads out of my dieting lifestyle, I didn't think it would be to hard.
I also would like to exercise more than I do on Flex. The deal with exercise on WW is, the more you do, the more you get to eat. On Flex I was getting enough points to eat every day (at this point) that I didn't have a big incentive to go out and exercise. On the Core, you also can eat your exercise (or "activity") points, and since you get less of them per day or week, there is a bigger incentive to go out an earn more points by exercising.
And finally, I haven't been hitting all of the WW good health guidelines everyday, specifically, I haven't been getting enough calcium or heart-healthy oils on Flex. Milk and olive oil just add to many points for me to work them in every day. On Core, I can eat as much of those as I want without worrying about the points, so it's a lot easier to hit those marks. Plus, I can eat other things, like avocado, which I was avoiding on Flex because it is high in points.
I'm only planning on doing the Core for this one week, because I have social engagements the next few weeks and I'll want to have the flexibility of Flex. If it goes well, I might try alternating between the two plans whenever I have down weeks. So far, the Core has required as much (if not more) forethought as Flex, so neither seems to be better when I am feeling stressed or tired.
288 : 263.6 : 250
My thought process for trying the Core was this:
I was looking through a notebook I keep of recipes torn out from magazines, marking recipes that would be low in points. I noticed that most of the recipes that I had marked would also be Core--that is, they contained only lean meats and veggies and spices or herbs. I thought that it might not be too hard to stick to eating from those recipes, plus fruit to snack on, for a week.
I noticed that while I was doing Flex, I almost never ate bread. I tend not to keep bread on hand anyway, because it always spoils before I can eat it all, and it is too many points for it to make it onto my Flex menu. One of the drawbacks of the Core is that you can eat bread, but you have to count the points, and since I had already cut most of the breads out of my dieting lifestyle, I didn't think it would be to hard.
I also would like to exercise more than I do on Flex. The deal with exercise on WW is, the more you do, the more you get to eat. On Flex I was getting enough points to eat every day (at this point) that I didn't have a big incentive to go out and exercise. On the Core, you also can eat your exercise (or "activity") points, and since you get less of them per day or week, there is a bigger incentive to go out an earn more points by exercising.
And finally, I haven't been hitting all of the WW good health guidelines everyday, specifically, I haven't been getting enough calcium or heart-healthy oils on Flex. Milk and olive oil just add to many points for me to work them in every day. On Core, I can eat as much of those as I want without worrying about the points, so it's a lot easier to hit those marks. Plus, I can eat other things, like avocado, which I was avoiding on Flex because it is high in points.
I'm only planning on doing the Core for this one week, because I have social engagements the next few weeks and I'll want to have the flexibility of Flex. If it goes well, I might try alternating between the two plans whenever I have down weeks. So far, the Core has required as much (if not more) forethought as Flex, so neither seems to be better when I am feeling stressed or tired.
288 : 263.6 : 250
9.16.2005
Rant copied from a IM conversation:
I have no sympathy for Renee Zellweger's marital woes.
Renee has been on my shit list ever since she kept talking about how hard it was for her to gain the weight for Bridget Jones's Diary, and how fat she was, and how's she naturally very thin! Honestly! Her ribcage has always protruded like that!
If you look at her in Jerry Maguire, before she was a supastah!, she's slim, certainly. She put on 15 lbs and looked very average in Bridget Jones, and looked great, not fat by any means. And then she dieted down to a skeleton. You can actually count her ribs in Chicago. And her comments about her weight fluxuations were pretty insulting.
I appreciate the fact that she's working in an industry in which a size 0 is normal, size 2 is heavy, and size 4 is heiferish. I understand (and regret) that celebrities are held to a different standard that the rest of us. But I especially dislike Renee because she had a chance to address the issue in a relevant way--she did actually gain weight to play a normal-sized woman, which is something noteworthy in Hollywood. But instead of using that opportunity in a positive way for all women, she used it to turn herself into a martyr--she had to be fat! For a whole six months! It was terrible!
So my point is, I have no sympathy for her marital troubles and I don't think she's any more "down to earth" than any other celebrity. Even if she did go to UT.
I have no sympathy for Renee Zellweger's marital woes.
Renee has been on my shit list ever since she kept talking about how hard it was for her to gain the weight for Bridget Jones's Diary, and how fat she was, and how's she naturally very thin! Honestly! Her ribcage has always protruded like that!
If you look at her in Jerry Maguire, before she was a supastah!, she's slim, certainly. She put on 15 lbs and looked very average in Bridget Jones, and looked great, not fat by any means. And then she dieted down to a skeleton. You can actually count her ribs in Chicago. And her comments about her weight fluxuations were pretty insulting.
I appreciate the fact that she's working in an industry in which a size 0 is normal, size 2 is heavy, and size 4 is heiferish. I understand (and regret) that celebrities are held to a different standard that the rest of us. But I especially dislike Renee because she had a chance to address the issue in a relevant way--she did actually gain weight to play a normal-sized woman, which is something noteworthy in Hollywood. But instead of using that opportunity in a positive way for all women, she used it to turn herself into a martyr--she had to be fat! For a whole six months! It was terrible!
So my point is, I have no sympathy for her marital troubles and I don't think she's any more "down to earth" than any other celebrity. Even if she did go to UT.
9.13.2005
I had a slice of carrot cake today at a work birthday party. According to nutritional websites, a 3 oz slice of carrot cake is 9 points. I have no idea how big my piece was, but that's close enough. But on my points tracker, I only counted it as 7 because I didn't enjoy it much. Oh well, I'm doing well, I can fudge a little.
Mmm, fudge.
288: 268: 250: Woo!
Mmm, fudge.
288: 268: 250: Woo!
9.09.2005
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