It's been a baaad week. I didn't stay on plan for long. First, it was Admin Professionals Day on Wednesday, and although my co-workers dropped the pretense that it would be a surprise (hello, it's right there on the calendar!) and just straight out asked me what kind of cake I wanted, they did not honor my request for a fruit plate instead. Although I did good on Wednesday, my willpower collapsed on Thursday and it's been downhill from there. I guess that's what I get from starting a life-style change on a whim. I'm going to stick to it though, and plan better for next week. Having healthy food on hand makes all the difference.
I broke one of my cardinal rules of weight-loss today, and bought clothes one size smaller than what I currently fit into. It's such a waste of money--buying something with the intention of using it later, which turns into never. But. I need new clothes badly. Work clothes, casual clothes, you name it, I ain't got it. I've been on a tight budget for the last few years, and buying more fat clothes hasn't been a priority. And I can't stomach buying more size 24s. In the fall, my 24s were so loose they were nearly falling off, and although I've put some of that weight back on and they fit again, I know that if I stick to WW this time around, I'll be into 22s in no time. No time at all. And now I have another goal/deadline of sorts. These pants have a 90 day expiration date, so if I can't wear them by the middle of July, back they go.
Damn, that means my birthday is only about 90 days away. I can't believe I'm almost 26. That's fucking depressing.
I hated asking for the fruit instead of cake at work this week, because I had to tell everyone why I was abstaining and it's just not a conversation that I want to have ongoing. It is a form of accountability, I guess, so if I don't lose I'll be recognized as a loser, but also, I'm not comfortable with my weight as a topic of conversation. It's great to get complements, but I don't want to feel like people are focused on that.
4.29.2006
4.25.2006
Back in the saddle again...
So, I went to my first WW meeting again last night since November. According to my Weight Tracker on weightwatchers.com, I was at 252.something when I quit for the holidays. Last night, I weighed in at 260.4. Not great, but not surprising given my constant menu of Ben and Jerry's and pizza for the last few months. I'm talking every night. But, I'm still almost 30 pounds down from my true starting weight, 288 in Jan 2005, so that's still progress, right?
I signed up for the summer pass, so I'm pre-paid through August. I hope that acts as a good enough motivator to keep me sticking to the program. Last fall, knowing that I've paid my money for the whole week was a good motivator, so we'll see if I can make that last throughout the summer.
Since I have pre-paid, and am not being held to when I turn over my money every week, I plan on shopping around meetings a bit to find one I like. Last night, I went to the Monday night meeting at the south WW store-front, and the leader was a guy (!) named Randall. As novel as it would be to have a male WW leader, I don't think I'll be going back to that meeting. The dude was a nutjob. He had no interest in greeting or accomodating new members, he couldn't explain the program well, and he had no control over the meeting. People were talking amongst themselves while he was giving out kudos, and people kept just shouting out (like requests for recipes) during his talk. Not in an "everyone is engaged and participating" kind of way, but more of a "no one is paying attention, and would rather share tips than listen to this dude" vibe. I got a tip that Mollie, who was the awesome leader that I had in the fall, still has a meeting on Tuesday nights at 6:00, at the north store front. That's quite a trek from where I live, but it could be worth it to have a good meeting to go to. It shouldn't be too bad for me to get up there straight after work. 6:00 is much better than 7:00 in that respect.
I am breaking with my previous m.o. and am setting a weight-loss goal for this time around the merry-go-round. I want to be at 238 by August 26 (which is when my pass runs out). That's 22 lbs in 17 weeks, which is totally do-able. It's also 50 lbs less than when I started, which would be amazing.
288 : 260.4 : 238
So, I went to my first WW meeting again last night since November. According to my Weight Tracker on weightwatchers.com, I was at 252.something when I quit for the holidays. Last night, I weighed in at 260.4. Not great, but not surprising given my constant menu of Ben and Jerry's and pizza for the last few months. I'm talking every night. But, I'm still almost 30 pounds down from my true starting weight, 288 in Jan 2005, so that's still progress, right?
I signed up for the summer pass, so I'm pre-paid through August. I hope that acts as a good enough motivator to keep me sticking to the program. Last fall, knowing that I've paid my money for the whole week was a good motivator, so we'll see if I can make that last throughout the summer.
Since I have pre-paid, and am not being held to when I turn over my money every week, I plan on shopping around meetings a bit to find one I like. Last night, I went to the Monday night meeting at the south WW store-front, and the leader was a guy (!) named Randall. As novel as it would be to have a male WW leader, I don't think I'll be going back to that meeting. The dude was a nutjob. He had no interest in greeting or accomodating new members, he couldn't explain the program well, and he had no control over the meeting. People were talking amongst themselves while he was giving out kudos, and people kept just shouting out (like requests for recipes) during his talk. Not in an "everyone is engaged and participating" kind of way, but more of a "no one is paying attention, and would rather share tips than listen to this dude" vibe. I got a tip that Mollie, who was the awesome leader that I had in the fall, still has a meeting on Tuesday nights at 6:00, at the north store front. That's quite a trek from where I live, but it could be worth it to have a good meeting to go to. It shouldn't be too bad for me to get up there straight after work. 6:00 is much better than 7:00 in that respect.
I am breaking with my previous m.o. and am setting a weight-loss goal for this time around the merry-go-round. I want to be at 238 by August 26 (which is when my pass runs out). That's 22 lbs in 17 weeks, which is totally do-able. It's also 50 lbs less than when I started, which would be amazing.
288 : 260.4 : 238
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